this whole damn world can fall apart you'll be ok :)

hey everyone! so i am better than when i last posted (i read it and i was like WOW i was moody!) i guess i am still sad but i did get over it after that day. so, things have been pretty good. i made a bet with myself in a way that if i am much better of a person from here on out maybe i will make it in from the waiting list. =) it is stupid but right now i just don't feel very deserving as i've been slacking off in school majorly (D- IN TECH ED! took me off the honor roll forever basically, and 2 office detentions!!! ahhh!) and in piano and whatnot, plus i still SUCK at chinese. also i stopped being as social as i used to be in school and eventually i will try to work that up too, but first i am going to be satisfied with myself and just generally be in a better mood most of the time because i haven't been.. fun to be around lately to put it nicely ;p

so, on friday i slept over my friend's house and we had an all-out slumber party (even though it was just two of us) where we did hair and makeup and nails and all that good girly stuff and that was very fun. then on saturday i got invited sledding (a whole foot of snow!) and to a sleepover but my parents were mad at me so i didn't even ask, and i stayed in and did chinese homework and ran around the house in shorts with albert because we were really hyper. today, i had chinese school and i had a meeting with the ten others who are going to china this april, and we had to prepare our english lessons for the chinese kids down there, and i realized a really really really bad terrible fact

and that is: !!!!! i am so hopeless at chinese!!! i thought i was okay at first, but when i tried putting together a tiny little lesson describing how to pronounce everything i could not say a single sensible strand of words without pausing and saying um and stuff! and then i did some serious calculating and i am estimating now that i probably know.. 30% of the whole chinese language.



30%!!!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW TERRIBLE THAT IS!!! and i am going to the chinese countryside in 4 weeks !!! that is why, in a desperate attempt to bring the 30% up to AT LEAST a 50% i will be speaking in totally chinese with my parents for the next few weeks, and i will THINK all my thoughts in chinese every chance i get, and HOPEFULLY, hopefully hopefully i will be way better. :D


well that's really all i have to update about now. OH! and our school play is opening this week so we are dress-rehearsing every day of the week and it's going to be so fun! woohoo, ok bye :D

love,
geena


PS: i have new song recommendations if people are still looking! =)

you get what you give - new radicals
more than a feeling - boston (btw did you know the lead singer of boston committed suicide like a week ago? it is sad)
jerk it out - caesars
man of the hour - pearl jam
save me - unwritten law
yellow - coldplay (i will bet most already have this song but if you don't you SHOULD! :D)
first week - graham colton band
breakfast in america - supertramp (if you know the song "cupid's chokehold" by gym class heroes, this song was actually the original of it. i like both songs equally because they are actually very very different style-wise.)