letters

i only applied for one school and i got waitlisted. there were 25 spots on the list and at the end of the year they need to see your final transcript. this is not a good thing because i got a d- in tech ed and the competition is still fierce so i'm sure that'll rank me pretty below-ly.

i don't know what to say. i thought for sure i was rejected because the envelope was so small and the first two words i read were "i regret" but i guess it's a bit better. i know i will sound like a jerk and a self centered snob but i guess i didn't really expect it. i am okay with being waitlisted but i am just not okay with like, myself. i am really dissatisfied right now about my life in whole and it's something i think i can figure out. actually i don't really know, maybe i can't figure it out. i haven't been able to be satisfied all year so who's to say i'll be perky again now, but then again i am feeling kind of pessimistic right now. i got the letter and so far i've stayed on my bed for an hour and a half. i guess i should get dinner now though

:)

love always
geena