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okay since i still cannot comment, i have to make a separate post again.

BUT, raymond you are seriously making me MAD. whatever happened to you, the more sensitive and fun and NICE guy. you are so keen on impressing everyone that apparently you need an excuse for everything you ever did at cty (which might i mention was OVER SIX MONTHS AGO) that people might not have liked! and of course you would want to clear up misunderstandings but you don't have to be so condescending about it. frankly i am sick of you posting just to bring up more and more dramas and your post DID NOT REDEEM YOU AT ALL IN MY EYES. plus what is the point of you still being here if you are obviously holding a bit of a grudge? ('i don't think i have yet a reason to apologize to the rest of you yet...")

you are being a self-centered drama queen. seriously, try and explain everything you want but you are making a stupid soap opera production out of all this silly crap. it is like you are asking for people to get in arguments with you. all your posts lately have just been about you. about you and why you left and how stupid we are being and what bad judgment we all have. well i am getting fed up with your attitude and you trying to make excuses for everything and always needing to be right and continually looking down on us like we are taking everything the wrong way.

and i have more things to say blahdiblah such as how you don't think you're a poser (HELLO? HOW MANY TIMES WERE YOU CALLED A POSER AT CTY EVEN?? let me tell you that i have never EVER thought of you as "just raymond" or you "being yourself," you changed & tried SO hard to be cool so much that EVERYONE in our class probably called you a fake at least once. i guess you don't remember though. or what about even now? you never used to be so cold and subtly mean, yet apparently you have always been like this. you have always been "just raymond"! ) but whatever raymond. "I AM THINKING TOO MUCH," yes that must be it.

well the point is i am sick to death of your contradictory posts about yourself. they are STUPID (you see we are arguing about SUMMER CAMP. PATHETIC!) and they are upsetting me and they are probably upsetting others too. and you know why? because you are being selfish and attitudinal and you never used to treat us like this. so if i read one more post like this from you then YOU WILL BE TRYING TO PULL BOTH OF MY HUGE BOOTS OUT OF YOUR GIRLY LITTLE ASS IN LESS THAN A SECOND.

i don't know if i can speak for everyone here but you have hurt me and i would really like to see this whole thing just get over with, and if you are still unsettled about some other "misunderstanding" on your part then just KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. personally i am going to say that either you stop acting so arrogant and convinced that you are right and we are unreasonable, or you just leave for good. i am sick of getting all wound up and furious over you now, and i know angie asked for you to stay but you are so utterly stubborn that i cannot really see you apologizing for anything or being sincere at all anymore. IF you actually decide to put it all behind you then sure, but i know you don't like me anymore and i don't know if you seriously think anyone here is worth your time at all; so what is the point of you staying?

well i am going to have to say i am done. and i can already guess that you will be posting again: "what is wrong with you guys? seriously, what did i EVER REALLY DO? you're overreacting! you're being irrational! you're taking everything too far! you MISUNDERSTOOD ME!" and on and on and on. well say what you want raymond if you're just going to keep on persisting with this same STUPID argument then i'm not going to listen to you at all.

geena