Falling Apart?
I think I might be getting what Raymond posted a while back...it's just...out of everyone, how long has it been since we've heard from each one? I don't know how long it's been since I've heard from Kingston, do I? It's just...I don't know, I really do feel like I'm lying to myself. First time I went to CTY, everyone pretty much disappeared after it was over. This year, we've tried to keep everything, but I'm not sure if it's really worked or if I'm lying to myself.
I don't know...I don't want to give up, but I don't think it's the same anymore. Maybe I just didn't try hard enough, but...it just doesn't feel right to me. Meeting someone and then not ever seeing them again but trying to keep in touch. Even seeing someone once a year feels better, but it's not certain, is it?
Maybe I'm being stupid, but I don't know anymore...
posted by Scott Zeng at 12:35 PM
7 Comments:
i get what raymond was saying. of course he had some truth but his tone and everything just pretty much ticked me off.
i think the blog was made because after cty we kind of needed each other, or we needed to keep in touch. but eventually the truth is we won't always need each other forever and that's going to be fine when the time comes because we've gotten what we could've gotten out of it.
not to sound oversentimental but i still do think about all of you a lot. and i love talking to everyone and venting here, just because it's nice to have friends in places other than home that won't be so judgmental. plus i find everyone here really inspiring and i feel like i learn a lot from talking and listening. maybe it means more to me than it does to you but i think that's okay.
i don't know either. i think everyone knows that inevitably it will not last forever. but i think it's important to enjoy it while it does. "live for the moment" right? =) and let things turn out how they will, and when we really are totally out of touch that will be okay with us, and we will not forget the old times and that is what matters to me. =)
i totally agree with geena. especially her first 2 paragraphs and im not ready to give up.
plus me and emily had a reunion a month ago (u, cherry, & ray couldnt come) and we decided to have one after new years with the FIVE of us at bridgewater commons mall cuz 2 of us go there often (u and me). so we'll still be seeing each other right? plus i see you every sunday! yay for chinese school!! ... :) u get my drift.
you have to remember: any relationship without talking or spending time together is pretty rough.
I'm sorry for not keeping in touch. I'm trying, really, but I have so much more homework than last year and it's kind of overwhelming. I'm trying to find a way to balance it all out, I hope I get it figured out by the end of this year. I sound really pesmistic(complainy), but I'm just really stressed.
Maybe I've just been a bit too pessimistic, and took one thought and turned it into the extreme.
Don't worry about it, Kingston. Just glad to hear from you.
In NJ, we can go to several malls for a reunion. Bridgewater and Menlo seem like the best place, though.
Once again, Geena hits the nail on the head with one of her novel comments. I agree.
I don't live close to ANY of you. But I would be able to go to Menlo for a reunion. That's not as far away.
And BTW: even though I don't necessarily post a lot, I do read the blog pretty much every day.
i dont think u need to be phsycially there to be friends... like i see something that reminds me of cty and i smile and think of u guys... isnt that enuff?
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