man. i need advice but please don't hate me. =(
happy late halloween and everything, i was going to post pictures and stuff but something just came up and i'm totally scared now.
so albert was logged into his email account and i saw an email from my own email address, except it was my friend ali who somehow got onto it. i think i might've logged on at her house or something and maybe i didn't close it? well anyway. she sent an email to my brother but she didn't even tell me she was on it, so if albert hadn't logged in i probably wouldn't even know. but anyway: on my email account are emails i've sent with friends pretty much complaining about ali and how she's so annoying blahdiblah (because honest to god no one likes her and she drives everyone crazy) and i guess it's pretty low to trash people over email but if you knew her you'd understand. so i'm pretty positive she read it because she's always just been like that, she's always wanted to know what's in my journal or what i say to other people, and now i'm just scared. because she KNOWS i think she's annoying but the emails were pretty mean i guess. she didn't come to school today and i wonder if that's why.
i know i sound awful and cowardish and gossipy and bitchy and i guess i am. this wouldn't be a big deal if she didn't happen to be one of my very best friends. and yeah i know you're probably like "if you hate her so much why are you friends with her?" and the answer is i don't really know. i just know that i love her a lot when we're just alone, but with other people she's just the most annoying inconsiderate clueless showoff in the world and that's why i need an outlet, which happens to be my other friends who feel exactly the same way about her. well i won't make excuses but i just know this isn't going to be great and all i can imagine is her being mad at me for eternity and me being mad at her for going on my email in the first place. i don't know what to say to her though, which is the problem. because if she's at school or something tomorrow a "sorry" won't exactly cut it.
gosh drama. i'm sorry this isn't exactly an awesome post but i need advice if you have any. =/ and try not to think of me as a total psychobitch. i know it's all better to say things to the person's face if you have something to say and everything but honestly has anyone ever not talked behind someone's back before? well i didn't know what to do so i just posted. i guess i'll just do my homework then. i hope you all had really awesome halloweens though. =)
love,
geena
posted by Geena! at 10:15 AM
3 Comments:
Yeah... what Kaela said. I'm pretty bad at giving advice with this kind of stuff, but there's a similar girl in my class so I sort of know how you feel. Everyone kind of hangs out with her and she thinks she has friends but everyone sorta hates her because she's really nasty and stuff all the time and there was this one time she had an emotional breakdown in front of my entire grade and started screaming and crying about how she hates the school and everyone in it and threatened to kill herself. And it was really scary because she was absent for three days after that. I'm not exactly sure what the relevance of this whole story is, but I think Kaela's got something wiht the confrontation idea.
I understand how you feel. Sometimes, I talk to my friends about how annoying someone is, because I need to pent my anger into someone. (My family gets too many complaints from me. ^-~) I think you should go up to her at school tomorrow and ask her, "Did you go onto my e-mail account?" And if she says, "No," say, "OK." because if she did and she's angry, she will come out with it sometime. If she does confront you with it, apologize and tell her without being rude or in-your-face and let her talk to you, too, about why you feel that way about her. Tell her that you still want to be her friend. If she doesn't let you, stay away but don't be cold. If she does want to be your friend, she'll come up to you. Then say, "Me too," and tell her that you can't do that without trust, so you won't talk about her behind her back, and ask her to not invade your privacy. If she doesn't ask you to be friends again, but apologizes too, let things settle at peace, but don't be all friend-y with her. It won't work. I hope my advice works. It's too specific... sorry ^^. I hope things work out for the best.
eeek thats ok tell her that you didnt mean it and apologize lots. its mean but trust me ive done worse things. forgiveness is really difficult but i bet eventually you guys'll be friends again. but dont send any more emails. good luck geeee <3 :)
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