hii again

hey sorry i think i make too many posts but hey i can't live without you guys so yeah. i was on my bed and i started crying really hard again and i'm kind of getting sick of it. not sick of you guys but sick of how i can't just get over it already and stop being a jerk to home people. it's so hard though, it's like people expect me to be perky and stuff all the time and it's just so annoying to have to live up to that here because i can't really be all cheerful all the time and people just can't seem to accept that so they automatically leave me alone and think i'm depressed or something. it's SO ANNOYING. i'd do ANYTHING right now to move to a different town where i can go to a private school or something and just completely start over, just like i did with you guys.

anyway though. today when i came back from the pool place and took out my ponytail my hair got chlorinated and wavyish and i thought it was really cool because i've never seen my hair like that before. it's pretty exciting. =)



ahhh that's actually kinda scary. i just thought the hair was different. =) hmm i had other things to say too.. i forget now

oh, can we have like a big chat sometime again? maybe you guys -are- doing them still but if you ever have a big organized one again could you let me know? thanks. =) you're all amazing and if you need proof just ask yourself why everyone's still so upset about leaving. =)

chockfulls of love (does that make sense?);
geena